Why is church history so lacking in mercy and kindness and so mean?

Its just ego domination s, grouping of the mes. They are learning about love, so it s a ll in way of evolving. So its making many mistakes along the way, in this process of learning how to love.. People judge, that s what they do, so its how to learn not too.. . They have to learn how to transcend the duality.You get attacked with Biblical words, pages, when they don't like, or agree about something your doing ,that s wrong to them. Shows their strips as a way to put it.. But its all EGO.. You get stuff shoved in your face until you submit to their beliefs. So just go your own way and do your own thing, follow your own path and KNOW that God loves you just as much as the next person. Your always in and with God, forever.. Just don't get lost. Don't forget where you came from. Just remember God s Church is everywhere.. Its not an institution. ( Institutions are for learning means, some for the mentally handicapped).